friday’s thing } it’s not a painting, it’s a sounding board

things aren't supposed to take form but they are and i'm not sure if i'm happy about it

things aren’t supposed to take form but they are and i’m not sure if i’m happy about it

A few Fridays ago I decided to take out a roll of canvas-like material (I’ll never know what it is, it smells like upholstery fabric but it’s quite stiff and nasty) and start doodling on it with my paints. Nothing made sense in my life and I didn’t want this ‘painting‘ to make sense. It was an exercise in ignorance of color, form and composition. As hard as I tried, I couldn’t help avoiding total anarchy. This morning I decided to return to this painting. I’m not as confused as I was then but I’m just as determined to create a dystopian work. It’s not easy. Read More

new painting } eve blue

eve blue, 2013, acrylic on canvas, 60cm x 176cm

eve blue, 2013, acrylic on canvas, 61cm x 76cm

I feel so scattered. My work is all over the place. I’m creating individual pieces that I like, but I feel stuck. I have no solid plans and no direction. But I sense that one day *something* will dawn on me and I’ll regain some focus. For now, I’ll keep on painting, drawing and posting. Read More

blue

These are two videos my son Khaled and I filmed while playing with some water and blue food coloring. We were both very mesmerized by the way the dye reacted with the water. Later we introduced my girls to the liquid in what turned into something resembling water torture. Our intentions were good, but I’m not so sure the girls were happy.

*Music by Armenian Girl’s Choir Speghani. Read More

vinegar

pickled eves

pickled eves

As you know I get these surges of playfulness which grip me for a few hours and result in something that ultimately gets posted here. This time it was different, because my whimsy was a catalyst for something that would come after. It inspired my son, and consequently me, to play with some water and food coloring. I’ll publish that post later on today. Read More

the flower in her stomach

the flower in her stomach, the one that made her cry

the flower in her stomach, the one that made her cry

This was quite a production, from putting on the dress, laying out the black curtains and attaching my phone to a beam above. I was also a little distracted by my yearning for a loved one and a book that brought back  memories of bygone days. The song is ‘Flirting With You All My Life’ by Cowboy Junkies. Read More

yet another new book } watercolor sketchbook

the rubber band has been put there by me. it's the only way i can tame the book

the rubber band has been put there by me. it’s the only way to tame the book I’m about to murder

I’ve never owned a hard-bound watercolor sketchbook. The idea never even occurred to me before this beauty caught my eye at the Green & Stone stationary shop in London. I also love the fact that it’s in portrait format, perfect for my ladies.

page one

page one

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finally rose } day two and the morning after

i started my second day at rose cottage with a short bike ride around the area. this is the bike shed where i borrowed my bike from. i rode past a couple of farms and a horse stable. and i also almost squashed this fella...

i started my second day at rose cottage with a short bike ride around the area. i took the red bike closest to the entrance of the shed. i rode past a couple of farms and a horse stable. and i also almost squashed this little fella…

hello snail. it's funny because i was in such a hurry to take a photo of this snail and then stopped and thought: it's going to take forever for this guy to dodge the photo. i'm fine to take my time

hello snail. it’s funny because i was in such a hurry to take a picture of this snail, but then stopped and thought: it’s going to take forever for this guy to dodge the photo. i’m fine to take my time

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finally rose } day one

i said i was going to keep my cool upon arrival, but i couldn't help giving a little cheer when mark the taxi driver said we were here

i said i was going to keep my cool upon arrival, but i couldn’t help giving a little cheer when mark the taxi driver said we were here

finally the roses are united: rose & the roses at rose cottage

finally the roses are united: rose & the roses at rose cottage

Three days ago I arrived in the UK, with a promise  to take back England and return to myself. Yes, I know this all sounds very much like a second coming-of-age or worse yet, a midlife crisis, but those who know me know how difficult things have been in the past few months. And they know that I deserve a break. I know there are more people who have it worse off than I do, but it’s all relative and doesn’t make me less of an emotional shipwreck.

I’m going to skip London and jump straight to a little place called The Grove Cottages, owned by Mark and Zuzi Scott in Edwardstone, Suffolk. Of course, if you’ve read one or two of my posts over the last month, you may have noticed the mention of a Rose Cottage, the one I’m calling home for two days. So come with me, let me show you around my little cottage in the English countryside. Read More